The side effects of my meds really have a big impact on my life. My balance (suddenly falling over for no reason, fortunately I manage to catch myself), dizziness & loss of balance at the gym when I'm trying to do step ups on the bosu ball--which even when I finally manage to achieve *not* wobbling all over the place, and manage the dizziness by staying *really* close to a desk, or wall, or something else I can catch myself on, and looking only straight ahead, never down--I lose whatever I've gained if I miss as little as a week, and have to go through the whole process again.
Lethargy... So hard to do anything, or want to do anything. As if that wasn't bad enough with the chronic pain! Sleeping 12 hours, even if I am not overtired, if I am not interrupted by life.
Most annoying at the moment is when I talk. I will be trying to say something to someone and I can't remember or grasp the word I am looking for! For someone who is articulate by nature, this is really frustrating. This never happened to me before I got back on these medications. I know the word, I just can't remember or articulate it. Like I'll be trying to talk about my prescriptions for instance, and be looking for "I went to get my prescriptions at the pharmacy and..." Instead I will struggle and finally come up with an alternative that hopefully the other person will understand like "white piece of paper" in the context of talking about the pharmacy or a doctor.
It happens to me all the time, and I hate it!
It's so hard--impossible--to achieve any energy, any zest for life. It's like I'm a half me. Yes, I'm calmer and less agitated, but I'm also just... Not myself. Lethargic and lackluster, without any real passion or energy for anything.
Like right now, I just feel sleepy.
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